Saying goodbye

I have been thinking about you lately, I am not sure how exactly. I still am completely shocked and disappointed in your actions almost two years ago now, but as time passes, I am able to think more kindly about our time together. There is this song, I know you know it..."He caught lightning in a bottle, cursed the day he let it go." I guess thats kind of how I feel, although, It was kind of taken from me rather than me letting it go. I dont really know how to think of our time together at this point, or how I feel about you, because you let me down so badly, but I know that you opened my mind and heart in ways I could have never imagined, and for that, I thank you. You know, she who forgets, is destined to remember. I still remember times and moments we have that I doubt I will ever forget, I can still feel them, in my heart and in my soul, like they had just happened. It really pains me to think that you are out there somewhere and we cannot communicate. I still miss you from time to time, sometimes I look over my shoulder just to remind myself that you arent around, but a lot of the time, I hoped you were.

In the words of Pablo Neruda, "I no longer love her, that it is for certain, but maybe I love her...though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer, and these be the last verses that I write for her."